Not Knowing If I Can

As I rest my mind
Hoping to clear the dust and
Shadows that cover all of me
Don't know how to traverse this path.

Ever since that instance
That I laid my eyes on you
You've been running through my mind
Feeling uncontented with what I have.

All things do change as time drives by
Just like rocks that grow old and rivers dry,
and all wisdom becomes dumb
But this I feel grows much, much more that now.

Fields, and valleys, meadows and gardens do fade
To the way-ward winter's beckonings had made
It's just like what I'm feeling and hurts me more as days pass
Not telling you how I am right now.

I am often alone
Staring blankly upon closed doors
Trying to hide
Everything I feel deep inside.

if I could just tell you
The things that clutters my mind
But never know if I could
Tell the words, I Love You.

I want to gaze at you
Longing for your arms
To cuddle me up
To sleep at night, Knowing you're mine.

"This was supposed to be lyrics of a song for a friend's band but they thought it was to "keme" so I put it aside for a while, then I fused in a poem I did back in High School t add spice to it, hope you'd appreciate it ^_^"